The one about names…

I have always loved coming up with names for things, mainly toys and pets (I’m not crazy enough to name my boobs, I think naming your body parts sort of proves to everyone you’re maybe a bit crazy).
Anyway, I recently created and Excel-file with a bunch of sheets – “Ben & Jerry’s”, “Christmas”, “Tea”, “Cocktails”, and “Coldplay” to name a few, and the sheets each have corresponding “names” in them. And the names are colour coded pink (for girls), blue (for boys), and purple (unisex names 😛 ).

Yes, I have started planning out dog names! Not nicknames, but official names. Basically, I have set myself on the path of becoming a breeder… “Why?” you may ask (very good question, ten points to you!), I honestly don’t know.

I’ve grown up surrounded by a bunch of dogs, my mum has bred Charlies for a very long time, I have attended dog shows since before I can remember… I guess the dog world is just engraved into my very being…

I have also come up with a few kennel names (!!!), but I won’t give those away 😉 The only “problem” I have at the moment is in order to apply for a kennel name I would have to go through a “breeders’ training”-thing organised by the Finnish Kennel Union (information about breeding, laws, duties, responsibilities etc. etc. ) and when applying for the name itself I would have to inform them of which breed(s) I’m interested in breeding… but I just want to reserve a kennel name for myself “just in case, if and when I decide to dedicate myself to this at some point, that point not being now”… *sigh*

Also, perhaps beside the point, I have so many names there is no way I’ll ever be able to breed this many dogs 😛 oops..

/jz

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How I’m going to make 2017 a year to remember

 

A new year is always seen as a chance to start fresh, blank canvas, clear slate, new beginnings – you name it.
We make great resolutions: go to the gym more, drink less alcohol, live without sweets for a month, lose 50kg by summer, save money to go wherever – you name it.

Well, the downside to this kind of view is that we get discouraged and give up when we notice our resolutions are “impossible” and we’re too bad to succeed with whatever it is we promised ourselves… and it’s been less than a week! We give up so easily.

My theme for 2017 is self love. We are all way too hard on ourselves, and others, and that needs to change. For me that moment was the moment the clock hit 00:00 1.1.2017.
From now on I’ll be more forgiving, more accepting, more loving, more open, more confident, more determined, and most importantly 110% me (not that I haven’t been myself before, I’m just going to work on accepting the extra 10% 🙂 )
I’m going to try to bring joy and love with me wherever life takes me. I’m going to be there for others in their time of need, and I’m going to be strong enough to ask for help when I need it. And I will be loving enough to forgive myself when I don’t reach the sky high goals I’ve set myself, and remain determined to eventually reach them.

One of the seemingly sky high goals I’ve set for myself is to lose weight  and change the way I see myself, and the way I let the world see me, for good. I’ve not set a “goal weight”, because I just want to feel good be it at 80kg or 65kg (or anywhere in between). I’ve also not set a deadline for when I need to reach this goal, because of the following reasons

  1. It’s not a diet
  2. I don’t know how quickly/slowly my body will respond to the small changes I’m going to implement
  3. I don’t even know how my body will respond
  4. My 2017 will circle very much around loving and accepting myself for who I am at all times, now, in two weeks and in 5 months time – and from there until forever.

I think the way we see ourselves is twisted, and the way we see others is even more so. How can you truly love yourself if you are constantly judging the people around you? How can you expect people to love you? If you focus on the bad, how will you ever notice the good? I want to see the good!
I believe that the way we perceive our surroundings changes our surroundings, be it for better or for worse. By changing the way we see we can change the way we are seen.

This year, 2017, I will be sporting a few mantras, one of them being “Don’t give up. When you fall, which you will, get back up and at it.” Because the truth is every day, every second, is a chance to start fresh. Every moment you are given on this earth is a moment you should not let go to waste. Use it to work towards something bigger and better.

I want to see change in 2017, and I will work harder than ever to make that change happen.

//jz

 

Christmas Holidays and a wrap-up of autumn term at the vet school

Well, it’s been a while to say the least. The reason for the pretty much complete lack of posts this autumn is simple; I have been working my a$$ off for uni.
We’ve had some seriously intense courses (read: immunology), which has led to me reaching the edge of a mental and physical breakdown at times. Anatomy has been the same pain it always is, but with a few new kicks 😉 (still have two exams to do in January, both anatomy) However, I can proudly say I’ve passed every single oral anatomy test so far and I only have a written test on blood vessels and the final exam left.

This autumn term has also been full of memorable moments (which will be in no particular order, since I can’t recall exactly when everything happened, so I’ll just toss them on the  list in the order they pop up into my little (very tired) brain 🙂 )

  • The Freshers’ party (best translation I could come up with for “fuksiaiset”…)
    • this was the reason we carried 5 kg of macaroni around town (see? I never explained that! Too flippin’ busy)
  • J got a cat!
  • I took Mysse along with me in August, really helped with the homesickness
    • … seems I miss the dogs and cats and frogs and other critters more than my human family, is that a bad thing?)
    • I took part in a little dog training hobby thing (rallytoko) with Mysse. It was great seeing him having so much fun, and learning a few things that I can teach my own dogs in the future
  • I got my Fennica colours at the beginning of December
    • won’t go into too much detail on this one, because it’s so difficult to explain and translate everything, but basically I’ve earned the right to wear coloured ribbons and a pretty cap at certain events 😛
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Representing at korp! Sakala . Here I still had the black cap, but now i’ve earned the nice white one 🙂

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  • I’ve given more presentations than ever before, some were individual, some were with a partner and some were group works (some of which ended up being individual presentations for me, because for some strange reason people don’t enjoy giving presentations and really enjoy giving the job to me.. I’ve learned to accept my part as the presenter, so it doesn’t really bother me 🙂 )

Seeing as the year is coming to an end tomorrow I’ll be sharing my autumn term “playlist” tomorrow or on January 1st and I’ll also make a completely separate post for my goals and wishes for 2017.

I hope everyone had a joyful, loving Christmas ♥

//jz

I’m feeling… all sorts of things.

Let me start by saying how wonderful my summer was (will have to write about that later…) – such a great experience!

Another thing worth mentioning is the fact I’ve aged (two days back, to be precise) – I’m 21 now (woo, great big news).

Lately I’ve just been feeling so blessed. Meeting all the new students, realising how lucky I am to be where I am, what a huge privilege it is… I’ve had time to reflect over things that have happened, and time to think about things to come.

I love my life. The highs, the lows, the triumphs and failures – everything! I’m in a good place, and I’m grateful.

When you find the thing that gives your life meaning never let go. Hold on to that and it’ll take you places.

And when you reach those places be sure to take it all in.

And when you’re on your way to these places try toenjoy the journey, because it’s going to be worth it in the end. I promise.

//jz

The one about the year that passed

I have now spent 11 days at home, and it’s quite strange I haven’t gotten around to writing this post until now. In my defense; I have been really busy (but that’s not what this post was supposed to be about… oh well, it’s my blog after all!)

  • I’ve got a third frog; named him Orro-Karus after two of my university lecturers/professors/teachers/don’t know their titles
  • I’ve had one wisdom teeth pulled out
  • I’ve tried to clean (we all know this story: you try to clean, but get distracted and end up making even more of a mess)
  • I’ve read books for fun!
  • I’ve been driving back and forth from here to there and everywhere in between

    and stuff along those lines.

However, this post was supposed to be about my first year of university. My first year abroad. My first year living away from home. My first year of a whole bunch of firsts.

In many ways it’s been much like any other year; had its highs and lows, I’ve laughed more than I ever thought possible, but I’ve also cried… a lot (please let’s not get into that). The highs definitely outnumber the lows a billion to one.
I’ve also met so many amazing people; people who inspire and motivate me, people who make me want to grow, people I can grow alongside, people who will change (people always change), and people who will spark a change (changes?) in me, the people I will spend the next 5 years studying alongside – my future colleagues.

So, what did we “achieve” this year?

  • did not fail a single test (not a single one!)
  • got a place of our own
  • survived dormitory life
  • managed to budget our life (at least somewhat okay 😉 )
  • learned (at least some) Estonian
  • got much more comfortable around cows and horses
  • went “out” more in a week than I’d done in the past 2 years 😛
  • spent hours talking about the deeper aspects of life when we should have been sleeping
  • managed to stay (almost completely) healthy! (meaning I didn’t have to go to the doctors for any illness, of course there was the usual cold etc. but nothing major)
  • survived one of the lowest lows we’ve encountered so far (let’s not go there)
  • watched more movies in a weekend than I’d watched in all of my life so far
  • tried a bunch of new foods
  • made a bunch of new favourite foods 😉

    and perhaps most importantly

  • stayed 100% true to who I am and managed to make some pretty amazing friends!

    and also

  • got definite proof I’m doing the right thing (ah, life in the Lord is pretty amazing, isn’t it? ❤ )

Below will be a list of songs I’ve either listened to on repeat for days (weeks, months) on end, or songs that I feel describe the past year of my life (some may be oldies but goodies, others may be freshly pressed).

Of course some “deep songs” have also been part of my life 🙂

… and so many more songs (why can’t I remember all the songs I’ve played as this year’s soundtrack?)

All in all, this year was without a doubt a success! So many wonderful memories, amazing moments, and beautiful people – I honestly cannot wait to get back to business with these guys in September!

//jz