Dreamy White Wedding

Ever since me and Monkey started talking about what to do about our relationship (early August 2010) I’ve been dreaming of my wedding-day (don’t all girls do this?). The feeling has only got stronger with Monkey’s friend getting married a while back.

I’ve been dreaming of a traditional church-wedding, of a traditional Indian wedding, of a combination of the two… But most of all I’ve been dreaming of dresses!

Traditional “western” dresses, vintage dresses, “Indian fusion”-dresses, traditional Indian dresses, all kinds of dresses”

perhaps not quite this much?

*ah* ^^ I’m too excited already (NB not getting married now!! Hold your horses 😉 )

//jz

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The relationship

Why does work have to be so life-consuming?
Monkey has been staying in at office until late night almost all week so far, so we haven’t had much time to talk. Every morning I wake up realizing I didn’t have the ultimate sleep, because we didn’t get to talk properly. However, I know that this is only temporary (the part about late night office-work) and that in the end we’ll get to talk all night every night if we wish to.

Hmm…
Perhaps it is easier to maintain a long distance relationship based only on emotions and no physical contact. And perhaps it will be even harder to say goodbye once you’ve met… *sigh* as much as I love imagining all the great things the future holds, the first goodbye is something I’m way too scared to think about – it brings tear to my eyes every time 😦

(sorry for being so emotionally exposed btw…)

I wonder why I’m writing all this… guess part of the reason is the fact that Monkey is still at work (or asleep by mistake 😛 ? ).

I miss him.

A lot.

A whole awful lot at times. It’s not that we don’t talk – we talk for at least an hour every day, one way or another, but more along the lines of not having had enough time this past week. (I know you’ll feel bad reading this monkey..) <– reason; he hates himself when he’s not able to “give me enough time”. I try to make do with any time we have, because I know he’s working hard for our future (and I love him for it).. (sorry, I’m getting too emotional again, aren’t I?).

(I realized I probably sound way older than I actually am in the last few words I wrote.. Is that bad?)

I feel I should make a series of relationship-related posts, simply because I think this one is all a blurry mess (because I’m about to sleep as soon as I’ve talked with Monkey). Also, in the beginning of Jenishu (mine and Vishu’s relationship) I used to love reading about other people’s ldr-experienses (still do). NB I was 14 going on 15 at the time, relationship-virgin (yes, this is the first relationship I’ve ever had and it’s been going for 3½years + 1 month + 1 week + 1 day), recovering from emotional trauma, so I tended to only read the happy experiences. Later I’ve read some super sad stories and traumatic stories as well. My version would be a purely truthful story of two people madly in love, with nothing but a gigantic distance keeping them apart.
The saddest thing in our story, I think, is the fact that my father (and brother from his side) still seem to doubt the realness of it all. Even my mother, when discussing my future, says I first need to find a man. This usually happens around discussions of me watching wedding shows and seeing adorable baby clothes in stores (FAMILY, if you read this, keep it to yourself. Just take it in, don’t discuss please).

(Now I feel this post is growing too long.. *checks “Preview”*.. much too long)

Time to sum things up;
Even though some might say long distance relationships never work, there are stories of ultimate joy, happiness and success – you just have to find them. I feel safe saying I’ve found the man of my dreams. One day we’ll live happy together and that’s when, as one chapter ends, another will start. I can’t wait for that day!

// jz

Waiting, waiting… <3

Yesterday was Jenishu’s 3½-year anniversary (which we totally forgot to celebrate!).
I can’t wait for the wait to be over! Sure, anyone who waits for something good never waits for too long, but please – 3½ years is a bit too much, don’t you think? Well, actually it’s not too much, just a long time.. ❤

LOL (lots of love) to all of you!

//jz

Anniversaries – They Come Once A Year

Three years down, forever to go.

True love knows no boundaries; the distance from Vihti to Mumbai is 3,708 miles (5,968 kilometres) in a straight line, yet we’re still so strong.

The moment you realize you’ve met the love of your life, your other half, your soul mate, your one and only. It’s absolutely wonderful. That feeling wins over all the times you miss the person, when you’re longing to have them next to you, when all you want is for them to be here with you.
I can’t count the times I’ve cried over having to be so far away from him. “God, why did you separate our souls by such a huge distance? Why?”
Yet every time we talk it feels like we’re right next to each other. the nearly 6,000 kilometres mean nothing.

“Distance means so little when someone means so much.”

“Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss.”

“When you feel alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers, remember that in those spaces you can see my fingers locked with yours forever.”

“No great love ever came without great struggle.”

These three years have sure not been easy, but the happiness, the memories, the smiles and laughter, the tears and everything else has made them the most valuable years of my life. Although things have sometimes been rough (time management, time zones (gah I hate them), we never fight and always come through with a smile.
We can talk for hours on end without getting bored – an hour passes like a second!
We tell each other everything! From grades, to gossip to what we had for dinner.
We laugh like maniacs and talk about some of the most random things you could imagine (Hannah Montana riding a unicorn on a rainbow with Psy doing Gangnam style all over the place – and this takes place at the Eiffel Tower… just an example).
There is an age difference of five years between us, but it honestly seems like max. half of that!

I really wish I could share a picture of the two of us, but I can’t ( haven’t got the chance to meetmeet as yet because of practical and economical reasons), but in a year I’m hoping there will be 🙂

I don’t think many people believed we were going to last this long – Jenishu; proving people wrong since day one. 😛

Monkey I know you’ll read this eventually, there’s something I want you to know;
I love you incredibly much, always remember that ^^ You’re my reason for existence and without you I’d be nothing. Every morning I have the energy to face the coming day simply because I have you. You’re with me in everything I do even though we’re this far apart. I want to share all of life’s pain and pleasure with you because you truly are the one and only for me. No one else can make me as happy as I am with you. No one else can complete me like you do.
I love you with all my heart and soul, to the edge of the universe and back ^^

To finish this off, I’d like to share the song that made all of this happen. Vishu told me to listen to it, and without a doubt that’s when our relationship started. There were no questions asked, everything came naturally.
The song I’m talking about is Vanilla Twilight by Owl City 🙂

Hopefully at least someone made it all the way through this post 😛

Let your lives be filled with love everybody ♥

//jz

Happy Birthday!

 

It’s Vishu’s 23rd birthday today (August 3rd)!!
Last night (at 00:00 Indian) he got a cake smudged in his face, and has been playing Dota 2 non-stop ever since – haha just kidding 😛 (He’s always playing it anyway)

Soon our “age difference” will seem smaller!
Experimenting;
17(atm)-23, seems huge
18-23, much better!
19-24, OK
20-25, seems bigger…
21-26, seems bigger…
22-27, OMG 😛
23-28, I’m just gonna stop !!

Okay, to be honest I don’t care about the age difference – just look at Madonna!
All I want is to celebrate many more birthdays with Monkey, not giving a $h** about the number of candles on the cake 😛 I’ve never been good at math anyway!
On the other hand I rock at statistics (not really), and statistics show that birthdays are good for you – the people who have the most live the longest! (cheesy but true!)

If you intend on living forever all I can say is “so far, so good!” 😀 
Oh, and in two days there’s another celebration! I’m not going to tell you anything else; everybody loves a surprise, right? 😀

Happy Birthday to everyone else celebrating their birth today! And Congratualtions to all the mothers out there – I respect your work! 🙂

//jz